Dear Miss (vapor) (Zen) Mulberry,
I see that you enjoy the century 22 posts as much as I do.
I love
your (fu) new (mi) words (ko) here as much as always.
A pleasure to
hear (read) you (between) again (the lines).
I just wanted to assure you that I do recieve and read my own mail. And
that I alone read it. If there is a specific "hello" to someone else, Like
say, "Tell (them) I said Hi", then I will tell them "Miss Vapor says
hello".
Just to let you know. And I thank you for the mails, words, textures,
metals, feathers, documents and well wishes. You are more influentual than
you know!
You certainly have your part in the scheme of things!
My good intentions to you,
ME
: Dear
: Small Planets,
: I have come to the same conclusion about using my name in
:
e-mails and
: sensitive posts. My thought is, after of course wishing
: you well.......
: My thought? or concern is ? One of the reasons i don't
: write
Mack too
: much anymore is that? I am not so sure that he alone
:
reads his mail? I
: know he used to.
: I recently sent some
important documents with a signiture
: or return reciept
:
requiring his signiture. I recieved back the reciept with
: his
signiture,
: assured it had at least reached him at all! My sister
: used to do
: Swarzenagers fan mail, he did'nt even bother to
look at
: it! It had the most
: amazing stuff, full of love esp.
from his fans in Japan.
: He's a sorry shit
: for not appreciating
even one note!
: YOu know it's just a thought?
: However, I began to become
concerned about the integrity
: of privacy.
: All history now of
course. Just a thought, it would be
: very easy for him to
: just
not recieve one or two letters since he may or may
: not always
directly
: handle his mail now that he has employees.
: thatz-all
: also, i am not impersonating you? I hope you know
that,
: and David Know's me
: very well.... My references and
allusions just so you
: know that! I am
: undoubtedly not going to
post there anymore or write you
: either as i do not
: intend to
become a nuissance..... I do enjoy your posts
: and it's amazing how
: much thought you put into them too.... I just told my
: father
not to use
: his name on e-mails at all, esp since he's a brilliant
: man and at some
: occaisons his imagination in paranoia or? I
call it over
: preparedness! works
: against him! I believe in
intuition and my
: Greatgrandfather tells tales of
: how they can
detect anothers mind. Mostly in student-
: teacher or fellow
:
cohorts. I believe it! So intuition or the soul-postage
: mark and
content is
: sent directly thru a more sophisticated level of
:
infra-red. On a paranoid
: note however, i signed onto whatever the
hell it was,
: buddy something? It
: posted that i was on a buddy
list for someone i happen to
: trust far away, but
: then i found
out that they can call you in your ------
: computor to buy voice
: and post regular mail and with what's it called? Dsl?
: It's
possible to
: really violate anothers privacy. Luckily i am too poor
: for that and I am not
: a very important person in the scheme of
life so i doubt
: anyone could be
: bothered to hack me or want my
identity so if they did ha
: ha ha !
: They would sure be disapointed!
: I exist barely as even a vapor
in human form.
: Nevertheless, it sucks.
: It sounds to me like you are not a big fan of Buddhism,
: well if
you meet
: a Buddha on the road kill hiIm ! Used to be a saying.
:
Just the same even if
: you hate organized religion? If you find the
authentic
: guidance of which I
: have not succeeded to find,
except in letters of which i
: am very lucky!
: YOu would be surprised how it truly is. I am simply by
: rote of
being a
: shoemakers daughter cast to have a few shoes lying around
: therefore in my old
: age grown to realize there are magical
forces as well as
: not so benevolent.
: They believe language is
of course valuble, however it is
: not the ultimate
: option for
communication. The seals are transmitted mind
: to mind like an
:
internet connection. Since they are finding now that the
: mind is not
even in
: the body anyway as conciousness and it's history.
: One thing that i have found though is that, over
: preparedness
is a result
: of "parts of a hole" ( you read DAredevil by
:
Mack)? I loved what he
: said, in that " I'll hire that neurotic
bastard
: (ie-overprepared) because he
: is fighter" something
like that?
: However, I believe when emotionally a gauge, gaouge as in
:
dent-damage,
: hole, hurt, pain, memory of the aforementioned. The 2nd
: brain the
: subconscious registers an alarm.... a forboding
frequency
: alert. In this
: case it is not always intuition at
work alerting us to a
: closer look or
: fleeing from or furrowing
into...
: Knowing. To just Godamned Know! Yes I know? My mother was
: a
poet in
: her humble way, ie not published and you actually remind
: me of her a bit. A
: big compliment comming from me! She was a
main frame
: programmer and banker
: otherwise in the 60's
anyway....
: She would say? See this eyeball I embroidered on your
: skirt
inside the
: waistline at the bottom of your spine? This is how you
: will know! Not too
: see with your eyes but to know with your
heart and in
: your gut! Do it and be
: there? I would be like man
why do i have to have such a
: ------- bizarre
: mother! She sews
leaves on my skirt and eyeballs in my
: skirt? I am going to
:
friggin Catholic school so i can get some normal clothes
: for a
change! (4th
: grade)
: We we're very poor and a single mother.... very sad. My
: father
had to
: climb in the goodwill box to get his albums out that she
: could'nt bring
: herself to burn....
: She was amazing and a
deeply loyal and mean bizness
: person. My father said i
: don't
know why I married into you Buddhaheads! Well, that
: was decades
: ago....
: In my old age now.... I realize how clever she was, in
: her poems, her
: dissection of numbers and words.... She had
hundreds of
: names she would sign
: in poems.
: No one
believed her when she said there is another world,
: a real reality!
: Not one believed her that there was a Zen master in her
: family
who was
: scorged during the war as an ememy alien threat.
:
WEll...... now I realize
: we are not actually running the brain, it
can run us? Yet
: this is an
: imprisoning reality... Not our
original nature.
: Language and it's true meanings are at many times
: forgotten or
: obfuscated. But the intuition, power to know is not
: easily
confused or
: cultivated. WE are speaking to a shadow of the person
: thru language i
: wonder at times. I can appreciate your
agressive
: pronounciation of the
: original intentions.
: Just remember, over preparedness as in paranoia can at
: times i
tell
: myself be a signal as in language where the intention of
:
the alarm is
: obsolete. When i am paranoid or someone i really care
: for. I have to tell
: myself? This is at times a mask and a
SYMBOL of a part of
: a hole of which i
: must honor, much like
OBON? Are you familiar with the
: Japanese Ghost
: worship? To
honor our loved ones, is also done for
: practical reasons. They
:
believe they can conduct affairs in favor or not in the
: other
conciousness,
: therefore when it is there day to return ie Obon in
the
: summer? They make
: food for them and send them here and
them back again.
: Now to honor original dents, crashes, pain, gaouges as in
: he
gauged me!
: i don't know the spelling.... (The brain or the synapes,
: or the part of the
: group of the brain as in subconcious) When
we feel,
: "alert Danger, danger,
: danger" WE begin preparing for
safety? No ? The
: problem is, what is
: bothering, eating at us
is not to be solved by physical
: data but emotional
: and
spiritual if you will. So I say honor the ghost of
: the dent! I can't
: seem to do it yet? But, when the conscious mind refuses
: to
cooperate with
: the subconcious mind it is like getting a letter from
a
: server which does not
: accept html or it is encrypted and we
forgot the code
: ourselves and like the
: security warning that
come on the screen and you get
: disconnected ? This is
:
dissasociation. Then as crazy rabbits, or squirrels
: hiding nuts in a
field
: not remembering where out assets are? Or why we are even
:
doing it? At times
: it is to me or for me because something is too
painful or
: un-acceptable
: conciously. So we get neurotic! My
mother used to say, in
: the kindest
: way.... "Don't worry
Fumiko, you are just
: neurotic" I was never offended
: because of
her tone and love.
: So in short? Sometime no is trying to get us, but pain!
: Pain is
an
: acceptable risk. It is in fact a divine order!!!! It must
:
be honored like
: American express or legal tender! But more so it is
: natures way to tell us
: we are alive! To remind us to take
care..... To protect
: ourselves!
: Instincts can trick themselves
like a dog accustomed to
: the fields, he
: scratched the cement!
So to become authentic? We must
: honor this pain and
: I am
beginning to realize that by rote of my spirit and
: faith? I will not
be
: undermined by this pain so why run from it. Get creative
:
with it! Our
: neurological systems are for me ? Like a lap-top with
: batteries running out!
: WE don't even realixe when we are
recharging, therefore
: how to take advantage
: of the source of
our choice! They can become totally
: corrupted and it is
: indeed
a mad mad neuron biochemical world.... I liked you
: words on this
too!
: So take care, be happy and don't worry!
: Theres a lot of
assholes on these boards.
: I will miss Kabuki and this will be my
last letter in
: memorium.
: May nature bless you!
:
%$%#%@%!&!&(00077@### Miss Mulberry